lessons learned

I am so thankful that God did not bless me with what I thought I needed. He blessed me with far more than I deserve. I am so lucky to be the mom of 4 amazing little boys. I have learned more about life and myself from my sweet boys. They have all taught me about patience. Nicholas taught me to laugh at myself, to laugh more often and to love deeper. He is the answer to so many prayers. Keagan has taught me to keep trying and never give up. He tries so hard everyday to do what most people take for granted. His dimples melt my heart. I have learned even more from Aaron and Taevon. These 2 special little boys have taught me so much. I take nothing for granted and find pure joy in the small things. A smile is one of the best things in the world. A giggle can make everything better. These 2 amazing kids have every reason to whine and complain. But they don't. They are the happiest little boys. They find joy in sounds and smells. They make the most of every day. Aaron struggles everyday. His body works so hard to function.  He is so funny and has such a big personality. Taevon is the sweetest little boy. All of his needs are a result of abuse he suffered at just 7 weeks old. He has the best smile and I love his giggle. Neither Aaron or Taevon can talk although they can communicate in their own ways. Things that I or others could complain about are so insignificant. If I have a ache or pain I can take meds, and do something about it. If our lives are not going the way we want them to we have the option to change it. My boys can't tell me if they are in pain or uncomfortable. Sometimes it is a guessing game to find out what they need. They depend on me for their every need. They experience many blood tests, hospitalizations and take lots of meds daily. Yet these 2 are almost always smiling. I am reminded daily that nothing matters. There is  nothing worth complaining about. It is our choice in what makes us happy. If Aaron and Taevon who can't do much on their own and who have every reason to complain can find and express joy and happiness then we all can. I choose to find pure joy and happiness in my life. I am the luckiest mom ever. I thank God every day for my miracles.  He in his own time gave me exactly what I needed. He blessed me with Nicholas, Aaron., Keagan and Taevon when the time was right.  His plan is far better than anything I could have ever imagined.