2 front teeth

Friday February 28, 2014

Keagan lost his 2nd top tooth. He has the best smile ever!! He was so excited to lose another tooth. He as talked all day about putting his tooth under his pillow tonight. My boys are growing up. I can't believe that Keag will be 7 years old this year.  I feel so lucky to be able to stay home with them. LOVE them!!

Taevon

Tuesday February 25, 2014

Poor Taevon is having problems with constipation. We have been doing so well with no problems until last month. I think is is a combination of a med change and a change in his formula. We ended up in the ER due to being impacted. We saw Dr M the next morning and he had a colonoscopy. We were STILL having problems  with constipation. Dr M wants Tae to have one enema every 12 hours and  we increased his Miralax from 17 grams bid to 17 grams qid.  Nothing is working. He had a KUB done Monday afternoon and it showed constipation, but less than in January. Poor thing has a stomach ache and there is nothing I can do to make it better.He is such a sweet little boy and I hate to see him feeling so bad. We were hoping that being up in his stander would help but so far it doesn't seem to be making a difference. Hopefully the changes in his meds start to work soon and he doesn't have to have another procedure. I would do anything to make him feel better but honestly I am so tired of poop. I am so tired. I just need these med changes to work.

oh my

Monday February 24, 2014

Oh my the things people say...

I was sitting in the hospital waiting room  with Tae today and someone asked "is he yours?' I said "yes" . They ask "do you have others?" I replied, "yes, 3 other boys" To which she adds "how do you handle all those boys, I could never do that" I simply said "our routine is a life saver" She asked their ages and I said "I have a 8 year old and three 6 year olds. She gasped and said "triplets?!?" I told her no that they were adopted. Her next question "did you know he had problems or did they hide it? This question gets me every time. I told her "yes I knew"  She asked "you got anymore that got problems? I told her all of my 6 year olds have different needs. She went on to tell me that she could never do what I do. She said she didn't know what she would do if any of her kids ever had problems.....After she got done telling me how horrible it has to be to take care of kids that don't know anything she asked "would you do it again?" She ended the conversation saying "it must be easier to adopt kids that are broken".... Thankfully the person she was waiting for appeared and she left...

A million times YES!!!! I would not change anything!! I have the family that God chose just for ME!! How awesome is that. He knew from the beginning that these would be my precious little boys. His plan is far better than anything I could have ever imagined.

For those people that think because of the struggle with infertility and loss I settled by adopting are so wrong. Adoption is a gift!  My kids were prayed for, wanted, and chosen!!! They are answers to so many prayers. They are my miracles.

I didn't adopt them because I am special or super mom. In my heart I knew this is what I was meant to do. I have learned more from these boys than I ever imagined. They have changed my life. The things I thought were important I now know are not. The things I took for granted I now cherish. Even how I choose to spend my time is different.  When I look at them I don't see their "disabilities". I see 4 amazing little boys that have more love and personality than a lot of other kids I know.

Nicholas is the sweetest child. He has the biggest heart. He is always concerned about the kids that are bullied. He has so much empathy. I am so proud of him. He was my first miracle and I LOVE him so much. He is still so innocent and I want him to stay that way for as long as possible. Unfortunately he is so smart and sees how society treats his brothers. The way he runs to me when he gets off the bus or that last hug and kiss he needs before he gets on the bus melts my heart.

Taevon is an amazing little boy. He overcame amazing odds. He proved all his drs wrong and started to breathe when he was taken off life support. What a miracle!! His smile lights up the room. He has taught me that anything is possible. He loves to be held and to be rocked. He melts my heart when he put his head on my shoulder and smiles. I LOVE this boy!

Keagan is full of life. He has the best dimples and sweetest laugh. Oh how I love to hear him giggle. He tries so hard to do things that most of us take for granted. His stroke, fetal alcohol syndrome and now Auditory and/or language processing disorder make learning very hard. He NEVER gives up. He has taught me to keep trying. To try my best in ALL that I do. He loves everyone and loves to help me with Aaron and Taevon. The way he jumps into my arms for hugs and kisses melts my heart every time. I LOVE this sweet boy!!

Aaron is my Super Hero. He has been through more in his short life than anyone I know. We have had some very close calls with Aaron. Thankfully he is doing well right now. Through all of his hospital stays, drs appointments, therapy he smiles. He has won over the hearts of all of his drs, nurses, and therapists. He has the biggest personality and makes his presence known. He communicates so well. He is a smart little boy. He knows way more than people give him credit for. He seems to know who is really interested in him and acts accordingly. He knows if someone is being genuine with him. If they are he interacts with them and they see his personality. If he doesn't think someone is genuine he shuts down. He won't interact or give them the time of day. He is so funny and has the best sense of humor. I LOVE this boy. He has taught me to take nothing for granted. I cherish EVERY second I get to spend with him.

These boys are my whole world. I can't imagine my life without any of them. There have been some times when the kids have not been treated very nice. I am not sure of the reasons and at this point I don't really care about the excuses. Just understand that these are MY boys and I LOVE them more than anything. They deserve to be treated the same regardless of their needs. I know people don't understand, or they are uncomfortable around the boys, or whatever the reason but they are little boys.  They deserve all of the love and attention that the others get. Treat ALL of them as you would want your kids treated. I know that it was my decision to adopt these angels. If you don't agree keep it to yourself. I have an amazing family and it was created by God. My kids were not accidents, mistakes or unplanned. They are gifts from God!!

Remember if you see us say "HI" to all of them. I promise it won't hurt. It might even open your eyes and change your life to get to know these miracles.

Keag

Tuesday February 18, 2014

Keag saw Dr C this morning. He is still not feeling well and just not acting like himself. Dr C thinks he is having migraines. Poor baby! We are going to keep track of everything and recheck in a month. Dr C said migraines in kids aren't the same as in adults and they are treated differently. Hopefully he will start feeling better, I miss my rambunctious little boy!!

more headaches

Sunday February 16, 2014

Keagan is still complaining of not feeling well. He woke up with a bad headache this morning and has not wanted to eat or drink today. I had a very hard time time getting him to eat a popsicle. He tells me that things don't taste right, things he normally loves. He has also been complaining of his leg hurting off and on over the last few weeks. This afternoon he started complaining that his throat hurt. He doesn't have a fever and his throat is not even red. I gave him a bath and as soon as he got out he started shaking and his teeth were chattering. He said he was so cold which is weird because our house is so hot for Aaron. Usually the boys are complaining how hot they are, not cold. He is usually my last one asleep and my first one up. Lately he has fallen asleep really early and is the last one awake. His energy level has not been the same. He will be playing one minute then the next he is all wrapped up in a blanket on the couch. He did play a video game for a little while today. He has an appointment with Dr C Tuesday morning. Hopefully he can figure out what is going on with my Keag. He has not really been feeling well since November.

playing "Honkey Dong" (Donkey Kong)

my sunshine

You are my sunshine my only sunshine...

I LOVE this song. I sing this song to the boys all the time. I have ever since Nicholas was born. They ALL love it too. I was so excited when I found it on canvas at Christmas time. I finally got around to putting it up with some adorable pictures of the boys. These sweet boys are my everything. They are my sunshine!!

My sweet valentines

Friday February 14, 2014

                                       HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

I was so excited to get the boys up this morning to see their Valentine surprises!! They loved their gifts. They were more excited to give me my gifts. Keagan picked out a pig that sings, and Nicholas chose a Mickey and Minnie plaque with the cutest saying.  I am so lucky, my heart is so full! I could not ask for anything else. After all of the gift giving we were a little behind in our routine. After LOTS of prompting everyone got where they needed to be on time. I spent the afternoon loving on Aaron and Taevon and making cupcakes for the boys. The boys each got another gift after school and we spent the rest of the afternoon working on their Lego. I am so lucky to have 4 sweet valentines!

valentines

Wednesday February 12, 2014

The boys wrote out their valentines tonight. They had a lot of fun. Nicholas carefully chose each one for each of his classmates. It was so cute watching him decide which one they would get. Keagan worked so hard so each of his cards would look perfect. I am so proud of him. He only chose one card and that was for his best friend Z. I loved watching them tonight.

headaches

Monday February 10, 2014

I talked with Nurse N at Dr C's office today. Dr C wants me to keep a diary of Keagan's headaches and vomiting fort he next week. He has another appointment Feb 18th. If he gets worse I am supposed to call them back. He is still complaining of headaches and nausea. Today he seemed clumsy and had trouble climbing into the van. He ate better today but he is still not his rambunctious self. At times he seems like he is out of it, a little spacey I guess. Hopefully he will start feeling better soon. I miss my wild and crazy boy!

well behaved

I am SO thankful for these awesome little boys!! They are the sweetest little boys ever!! Nicholas and Keagan are always so worried about someone being sad or getting their feelings hurt. I LOVE these boys. I am so proud of the people they are becoming. I LOVE being a mom!! I wish all parents would parent their children and stop giving them excuses for their poor behavior. I am so thankful that my boys are so well behaved.

Unremarkable

Thursday February 6, 2014

The waiting for the CT scan results was awful. My mind went in a million different places. I called Dr C's office yesterday and it was closed. Today Keagan got up with another headache and slept on the couch for most of the day. I called this afternoon and nurse J told me that Dr C was out until Monday. She said she would see what she could find out and would call me back. I am so lucky to have such caring drs and nurses taking care of my boys. She called me back and said it was unremarkable!!!!! Thank goodness!!!
I scooped Keagan up and began hugging and kissing him. He said "mommy can I get down and go play?" So cute. I am so thankful for good results. Keagan still isn't himself, but hopefully he will start feeling better soon. I miss my wild and crazy boy!

LOVE this sweet boy!!!!

spoiled

Wednesday February 5, 2014

I am getting so spoiled having my boys home all the time. I LOVE snow days. Hot chocolate, family movies, and snuggling on the couch...I love it all!! We watched Hercules and the boys ate a special snack. They played outside for almost 2 hours. I loved listening to their giggles as they ran through the huge drifts in the backyard. I am so excited that school is closed again tomorrow!

adorable

Wednesday February 5, 2014

Keagan lost his top front tooth today. He looks ADORABLE!!! He has been wiggling it for the last few days and it finally came out!! It is so funny to watch him talk and see his tongue poking out.

"pictures of my brain"

Tuesday February 4, 2014

Today Keagan had his CT scan. He was so excited to ride in the tree house elevator. We checked in and he got his bracelet. He was beyond excited to have it on. He kept telling me "Look I got one like Aaron" Once he was taken back he got really quiet. He kept backing away, holding onto my leg telling me how scared he was. It was horrible. The tech was SO nice and talked him through the whole process. He finally calmed down and climbed onto the table. I held his chin to help hole his head still and he did great. She even showed him his "pictures of my brain" afterwards. We didn't get the results like I had hoped. I am hoping Dr C calls tomorrow.

spoke too soon

Monday February 3, 2014

Aaron had a HUGE seizure tonight. I was taking him upstairs and it started. I couldn't get him up fast enough to put him on his bed. He threw up all over both of us and started choking. He became very combative and seemed to be in distress, thrashing around and crying. It took him a long time to finally calm down. I was so afraid he had aspirated and we were going to have to g to the hospital. The on call Dr said if I thought he was ok he could go to sleep and see the Dr in the morning or if I thought he needed it he could go to the hospital. I rocked him for awhile and he finally went to sleep. His breathing returned to normal and he stopped coughing and gagging. He slept until 4am and was back to his ole happy self. I was never so happy to hear him yelling for me in the middle of the night. I am so thankful that his seizure stopped without needing any Diastat or Ativan. Hoping for a seizure free day tomorrow.

CT scan

Friday January 31, 2014


Aaron and Keagan saw Dr C this morning. Aaron had his regular monthly check up and Keagan had his 6 year check up.

Aaron is doing fantastic. This is the best month we have had in over a year!! He is less bloated and more alert. He lost a few ounces since his calories were last decreased. He looks so healthy. I still worry about him and am waiting for the next issue, but it is not a every minute all consuming feeling. I am enjoying every moment and soaking in every little detail about this amazing little boy.

Keagan has grown since his last appointment. He is in the 50th percentile for weight and height. We were talking about the fact that Keagan has been complaining about headaches since November and now he is throwing up with them. He usually wakes up with one and it gets better as the day goes on. He never has a fever.  He has been complaining that food doesn't taste right and his appetite has not been the same. He was concerned because he said since there was no fever or diarrhea it doesn't seem like a virus and that nobody else in the family was ever sick too. He wants to get a CT scan.

I feel like I am at my limit. Just when I am starting to relax a little about Aaron. I know I am only given what I can handle but this time I feel VERY overwhelmed. Anxiously waiting for Tuesday.